The Celebrations are about to begin

Saturday is my baby's fourth birthday party! I'm so excited and at the same time a little sad, she has grown so much in just four short years. Where has the time gone? It seems like it was just yesterday that I was rocking my tiny baby in the blue glider my Mama bought for me just to rock Abby in, she was so small and the world was just perfect, well except for the whole lack of sleep, constant feedings, crying and trying to figure out what was wrong (that was both of us), ok, so it wasn't perfect, but it was pretty darn close. My baby isn't really a baby any more, I started noticing it last year when she turned three, but now she's one year away from starting, school! I can't believe it. I have always heard people say time flies, but it never really rang true to me, until I had my daughter. Now here she is walking, talking, running, dancing and it was just a short time ago, she couldn't get around without me. I never knew how much my life could change in just nine months, but it did. My life is so much better and richer because of my daughter. Even now, as I drop her off at daycare, I still hate that I'm not home with her, you would think I would be use to it after almost four years, but I'm not, I love to spend time with my baby, and some days I just want to cry because I can't dedicate my whole day just to her, but she understands, well kind of, she knows if she wants to get that trix yogurt and new baby dolls and watch her favorite shows on tv, then mama has to go to work, cause that's how it all gets paid for! I look back on pictures from four years ago and think how much things have changed. This time Four years ago, I was sitting at my Mom's house or at home with Scott and we had no idea what Abby would look like, every time her birthday rolls around we always say that. We had no idea this precious little black headed baby with big blue eyes was coming to melt our hearts and change our lives forever, someone that would love us in Abby's words "the whole wide world" and that we would love that much and more, was going to grace us with her presence soon. Time has really changed a lot, I lost my Mom nine months after Abby was born, one of the most important people in my life, since then I've lost my Grandmama and a few others in my family, we moved to a new city, I've lost touch with some of my family, I've gotten a few new family memebers, we got kind of a small farm going on with all the animals we have now, it's just life though I guess, Life is contantly changing and it's never going to be the same, you just learn to live in it and keep going, that's all you can do, just look forward to the present and forget parts of the past, you can't forget it all, because then you'd be leaving out some of the best parts of your story. So as I get ready for the 4th of July and my baby's 4th birthday, I'm moving ahead and looking forward to the future and the new adventures we have ahead of us. Have a safe & Happy 4th!