here's what's up

I am so looking forward to going on vacation it is not even funny! I can't wait to get away from everything at this point. Home, work all of it. I should be thankful I have a home and a job, but all I can think right now is about getting away, about sleeping in and the smell of the salt air and the sand in between my toes, feeling the hot sun beaming down and hiding under an umbrella, spending my days in my bathing suit and swimming when it gets to hot, eating shrimp and cheeseburgers and grilling out, helping Abby build sandcastles and collecting shells, that is all I can think about, I have beach fever! It seems so far away, but I know it's getting closer! I can't wait! I think about the ride down there and seeing the Panama City Beach Sign as you first get into town! that's what I can't wait for! This year has been a crazy one already between people at work, family and losing loved ones, I need a break! I can't wait!

In other news, I have had a particular friend on my mind, her and her husband are going through a time with their little boy, he's been sick and in the hospital and had to have surgery. I've not seen her in a long time, but it's funny how your heart still goes out to someone and makes you think of them and pray for them, even after all these years, guess that means she's a good person and was put in my life for a reason. I've never met her son, though I've seen pictures and read stories about him, he is a smart, strong and precious little boy. If anyone else reads this, please pray for him and his parents! I'm still praying for them! Keep your chin up Angel, it will get better!

Abby and I went to Church yesterday for the first time in a while. It was really nice and I was glad I went. It felt like it was were I needed to be and I felt like my Mama was telling me that too, because one of her fav. hymns was old rugged cross, and we sang that yesterday first thing, it may not mean much to most people, but it did to me, it was like a sign saying, yes, you need to be here and then the message, it was almost like he was talking to me. I go back and forth on this church and I don't even know why. Am I trying to make excuses not to go? Maybe, I don't know what it is, but I think I have decided I like to go again and maybe try to make it to Sunday School. We'll see. I just know I want Abby to have that and the only way she will is if I take her. I want her to know and understand about Jesus & God and I'm not the best at explaining it. And I just loved going to church when I was little. When did it become such a chore? And why did it turn into that? I started going back with Mama to support her when I was older and then liked it and the preaching, at first I fought it and had my suspisions, but now, I kind of miss going, if it wasn't so far away, I would think about it, but I think I may have found a new place. Maybe I'll keep it up, we'll see.

It's been a while

I know it's been a while since I've blogged, I didn't really have much to say or that I wanted to share, so I didn't do anything. I still don't have too much to say, but I'm sure I'll come up with something as I keep writing. So here's what's on my mind, in a nutshell, I'm still waiting to find out if my daughter will get in preschool, we first didn't qualify because supposedly we make too much money and it's really for lower income families, I'm like seriously, I thought this was a public school program to get kids ready for Kindergarten, guess I was wrong apparently it's a babysitter for low income families. This really t's me off because they have headstart and preschool and what options do I have? Only to take her to daycare and hope they teach her stuff that she needs to know. I get so tired of getting up and driving 2 hours to go to work one way and working all day and driving two hours back, knowing my daughter will not get the help she needs because there are other families that have a million kids they can't afford and sit on their butts doing nothing all day, it drives me nuts, and if I didn't have so much drive to want to do something with my life, I'd quit work and sit on my ass all day and then maybe my child could get in preschool! The things that really makes me mad too is that she really needs the help, she has a bit of a speech problem, and she needs to be there to get help from the speech therapist, but that doesn't matter, because we both work, apparently we make too much money, so she can't get the help, that drives me crazy! School started last week, we are finally going to meet with the speech therapist and another lady next Monday to see if they have any spots that they have empty and see if Abby can get in and if not see if she can at least meet with the speech therapist once a week to get some help, so if she does get in, she will be 2 weeks behind everyone else. I'm just worried if she doesn't get in and get help, when she starts school next year, she will get behind. And I can already tell from working with her at home, when she gets discouraged or can't figure out how to do something, she's ready to quit. I just worry about my baby, I don't want her to get behind, because she is so smart and so special, she just can't pronounce all of her words correctly. So keep your fingers crossed for Abby that she gets in. And if she doesn't, I've already got a long letter to the editor ready!!! And I think I will send it to the school Board and anyone else that will listen!