Seriously, where's the romance guy?

Ok, so I gotta admit, I didn't think about blogging this til I read a funny blog from a friend saying something about romance going out the window and I think it does, much too quickly! I mean seriously, it's like once they have you and know they do, there goes the romance, well in most relationships, there are some lucky freaking people (obviously not me) who get a guy that keeps the love alive in the romance department and I don't just mean in the bedroom. I mean the lovey dovey stuff, like the cards and flowers, the sweet notes or emails, the taking you to a special place, or making your favorite food or picking up something for you like sweet tea on the way home just because. I mean I know this goes both ways, but really 9 times out of 10 it's usually the women that do this for the mean, but where's the return? I know we don't do it to get something in return, but sometimes it would be nice! I mean times when they are not obligated like valentines & anniversaries. I think back to the times (9 years and 4 months ago) when Scott and I started dating and it was all mushy stuff and hugs that meant something and so on, I'm like if it's like this after 9 years, good gracious what's it going to be like after 19 years!!! Don't get me wrong he does a lot of good things, but not romantic things. And when I mention it to him, in a way that's very direct (cause you can't beat around the bush with guys, they can be dumb sometimes) I'll say, it would be nice of you to do something romanic againg like you did when we were dating or I miss it when we were all romantic and his response is, get this, I don't know how to be romantic. Oh really, well you sure knew how 9 years ago! Did it all dry up and wither away or what? Seriously??? I'm like you better find it and get it back, cause I want my romance guy back dang it! Get a book or something, just figure it out! I have to say he still does things few & far between, but it could be a little more consistent! And it's like the hugs and kisses are just that, they don't have meaning to them any more or even the words I love you, it's just something we are use to saying, I mean I know we love each other and that's one reason we still say it, but it's not like in the beginning and I know I'm not going to have some fairytale romance, but a little bit would be nice! Geez get with the program man! OK, so that's enough ranting for now. All that really matters, is I still love him enough to put up with him and keep him around, because in all honesty, I don't kno what I'd do without him! Cause, I heart him!

something about Thursdays

It must be something about Thursdays, because I just looked and last week I posted a blog on Thurs, now today I'm posting one, hadn't thought about it all week til now and so here I am. Anyway things are going, I'm have a Me night out with a friend tom. night! It's going to be awesome! We are going to her house and gonna scrapbook, watch movies or just veg and do nothing it's going to be great. I'm so excited and then on the other hand, I'm already feeling a little guilty for leaving Abby, I know she will be just fine with her Grammy til her Daddy gets there to pick her up, and goodness knows there are times (like last week, I couldn't wait to get away), but now that it's time, I'm feeling guilty! What's up with that? I mean I haven't been out with a friend in over a year! So why should I feel guilty? I sometimes envy the Moms that get to go out all the time without their kids, but when I do get a chance, I miss her and feel bad for not being there with her. Is everyone like this or am I just a freak? Ok, that was a joke, I just mean, that I love her so much, I guess I feel like I should spend all my free time with her. The only me time I'm use to having is my drive to and from work, which technically is only me time because I'm the only one in the car, there is nothing fun about it. This morning when I dropped her off, she started crying for me, I haven't had to deal with that in a while and you would think by the time they were 4, you'd be use to it right? Well not me, cause it still breaks my heart every time! She kept saying she wanted to go home with me. And I hated HATED to leave her, but didn't have a choice because I had to go to work. So I've called both my Step-Mom and my Dad already to check on her. I've been assured she is just fine, but still, I hated to leave her. Scott and I go tonight for our first Parent-teacher conference with her Pre-K teacher. I hope that goes well! She always says she doesn't want to go to school, but every afternoon when I talk to her she says she's had a good day, so we'll see. Guess that's it for now.

just some things

1. I didn't realize how long it's been since I'd blogged
2. I love my daughter and miss her terribly, even though I just saw her this morning
3.I'm aggravated with work and wish I had a good paying job in my home town
4. I'm really looking forward to the holidays and at the same time dreading them for the sadness of not having my Mama to share them with
5. Just when you think someone has changed, you find out they really haven't, what a bummer
6. Why put hope in people when they are just going to let you down?
7. Why is it their are always too many chiefs and not enough indians in the scheme of things? And the chiefs are always out to catch someone doing something wrong or messing up, even if it's meanial (sp?)
8. why can't we all just get along
9. I can't wait to dress Abby up for Halloween
10. I'm ready for a visit with my Big Sis, geez I miss her
11. Looking forward to my Mama's night out, it's been way way to long (over a year people!)
12. I miss Abby and wonder what she's doing
13. I'm wanting to go spend a day doing nothing but taking pics
14. I need a family day
15. Ready to go to my Papa's and see some of my family and have a good time
16. Not sure why I am doing this in numerical order, just seemed right
17. I want to go walk next weekend in the Breast Cancer walk, but probably won't and I hate that
18. Thinking happy thoughts of my husband and loving him so much! Happy Birthday honey!
19. Did I mention I miss my Baby?
20. Have so many things to take off work for coming up and I'm dreading it because I don't want to get crap for it!
21. Glad most of my tests turned out fine
22. Love my Dad & Marcie so much and glad I have them in my life
23. Thankful for the wonderful friends in my life and knowing I have people I can count on to be there for me and there is no drama with them!
24. Greatful for old friends that show up and take me to lunch!!! Oh how I've missed them
25. Love Love Love my family
26. Miss my family that I don't see enough!
27. Ready to leave work
28. Want to scrapbook
29. trying to figure out what to cook for the hubs bday dinner
30. Excited about giving my hubs his presents and stuff tongiht.