here's what's up

I am so looking forward to going on vacation it is not even funny! I can't wait to get away from everything at this point. Home, work all of it. I should be thankful I have a home and a job, but all I can think right now is about getting away, about sleeping in and the smell of the salt air and the sand in between my toes, feeling the hot sun beaming down and hiding under an umbrella, spending my days in my bathing suit and swimming when it gets to hot, eating shrimp and cheeseburgers and grilling out, helping Abby build sandcastles and collecting shells, that is all I can think about, I have beach fever! It seems so far away, but I know it's getting closer! I can't wait! I think about the ride down there and seeing the Panama City Beach Sign as you first get into town! that's what I can't wait for! This year has been a crazy one already between people at work, family and losing loved ones, I need a break! I can't wait!

In other news, I have had a particular friend on my mind, her and her husband are going through a time with their little boy, he's been sick and in the hospital and had to have surgery. I've not seen her in a long time, but it's funny how your heart still goes out to someone and makes you think of them and pray for them, even after all these years, guess that means she's a good person and was put in my life for a reason. I've never met her son, though I've seen pictures and read stories about him, he is a smart, strong and precious little boy. If anyone else reads this, please pray for him and his parents! I'm still praying for them! Keep your chin up Angel, it will get better!

Abby and I went to Church yesterday for the first time in a while. It was really nice and I was glad I went. It felt like it was were I needed to be and I felt like my Mama was telling me that too, because one of her fav. hymns was old rugged cross, and we sang that yesterday first thing, it may not mean much to most people, but it did to me, it was like a sign saying, yes, you need to be here and then the message, it was almost like he was talking to me. I go back and forth on this church and I don't even know why. Am I trying to make excuses not to go? Maybe, I don't know what it is, but I think I have decided I like to go again and maybe try to make it to Sunday School. We'll see. I just know I want Abby to have that and the only way she will is if I take her. I want her to know and understand about Jesus & God and I'm not the best at explaining it. And I just loved going to church when I was little. When did it become such a chore? And why did it turn into that? I started going back with Mama to support her when I was older and then liked it and the preaching, at first I fought it and had my suspisions, but now, I kind of miss going, if it wasn't so far away, I would think about it, but I think I may have found a new place. Maybe I'll keep it up, we'll see.