something about Thursdays

It must be something about Thursdays, because I just looked and last week I posted a blog on Thurs, now today I'm posting one, hadn't thought about it all week til now and so here I am. Anyway things are going, I'm have a Me night out with a friend tom. night! It's going to be awesome! We are going to her house and gonna scrapbook, watch movies or just veg and do nothing it's going to be great. I'm so excited and then on the other hand, I'm already feeling a little guilty for leaving Abby, I know she will be just fine with her Grammy til her Daddy gets there to pick her up, and goodness knows there are times (like last week, I couldn't wait to get away), but now that it's time, I'm feeling guilty! What's up with that? I mean I haven't been out with a friend in over a year! So why should I feel guilty? I sometimes envy the Moms that get to go out all the time without their kids, but when I do get a chance, I miss her and feel bad for not being there with her. Is everyone like this or am I just a freak? Ok, that was a joke, I just mean, that I love her so much, I guess I feel like I should spend all my free time with her. The only me time I'm use to having is my drive to and from work, which technically is only me time because I'm the only one in the car, there is nothing fun about it. This morning when I dropped her off, she started crying for me, I haven't had to deal with that in a while and you would think by the time they were 4, you'd be use to it right? Well not me, cause it still breaks my heart every time! She kept saying she wanted to go home with me. And I hated HATED to leave her, but didn't have a choice because I had to go to work. So I've called both my Step-Mom and my Dad already to check on her. I've been assured she is just fine, but still, I hated to leave her. Scott and I go tonight for our first Parent-teacher conference with her Pre-K teacher. I hope that goes well! She always says she doesn't want to go to school, but every afternoon when I talk to her she says she's had a good day, so we'll see. Guess that's it for now.